I fasted last Saturday/Sunday for the strength to have the courage to face down a tough decision I have been needing to make. I was overwhelmed with some important insights as I took time to pray, reflect, and retreat from my daily concerns.
Insight #1: I am incredibly stubborn and can easily slip into being prideful. Daily scripture study and honest and sincere prayer are essential to my ability to work on this weakness.
Insight #2: When I turn away from the Lord and His guidance, I am actually choosing to do things "the hard way" and make it more difficult for myself in the long run.
Insight #3: Change and transitions are difficult for me and my first instinct is to shut down, grit my teeth, and just get through them. Heavenly Father waits there for me to open up to Him, share my concerns and fears, and guide me through the process.
Insight #4: No matter how much I learn I am still desperately imperfect and need the Lord's guidance and forgiveness in my life.
I was humbled as I re-read President Monson's reminder to "never let a problem to be solved become more important than a person to be loved." I realized that I had been focusing so much on what I thought were "problems" or "situations" to get through that I had forgotten to just love myself and those around me.
I am one of the seminary teachers this year and I need to remember this as I teach these great youth about the truths of God's love.
I am actually anxious and excited about church this Sunday. I am looking forward to the opportunity to fast again, reflect on what matters most, renew my covenants, and listen to the testimonies of my fellow ward family members.
I am so grateful to a loving Heavenly Father who sent His son to mark the path and show me the way--who continuously invites me to come unto Him and for His spirit which testifies of the truth and comforts me. I have much to learn but I am so grateful that I know of God's love.
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